Pain Again

I am in incredible pain this morning. My shoulder hurts so bad the pain is surging up into my jaw and neck on my left hand side of my body. My fingers are slow to respond and my hands are clumsy. I have taken a couple of Advil but I am tempted to get the Percoset out of my truck. The only problem is that I would have to go down to my truck to get them and the pain makes me want to not go. I am hoping the Advil takes enough of the pain away so that I can function.

At least I can type. Even as I type I can feel the Advil beginning to work. It's odd. For most of my life, sleep has been my ally in self-repair. If I hurt something I would just sleep it off. Overnight my body would heal itself, repairing the damage of a rough lead life. Now things seem to get worse overnight. Injuries don't heal during sleep, but creep and grow, becoming ever more painful and difficult.

My knees have taken to hurting at night too. When I go to bend my legs at night, something I have to wake up to do since my legs will not move themselves, my knees hurt so much sometimes that I cry out in pain. I don't know why they hurt; they are not injured. It cannot be from last Christmas when I fell on my left knee, since my right hurts just as much. I can only assume it is from sitting all day, from having my knees in one position for so many hours. Yet I cannot understand why they hurt in the middle of the night. Oddly enough, once I move them, the pain goes away. It's just that initial move that is so painful.

My whole muscle healing system does not seem to work. It takes days, weeks and even months for the simplest muscle pull or tear to repair itself. These tugs and tears that we all get each day just ache and hurt, taking the longest possible time to get better. I know my healing system is still in place for most other things, stuff like the flu or cuts and bruises. It is my muscles, joints and ligaments that seem to be failing me most of all.

I am not sure if this is ALS or aging; perhaps it's some of both. I just know that my shoulder hurts like hell and has for days now. Using a wheelchair to get around sure doesn't help. I just want the pain to stop. I just want my body to get better.