I didn't want to get out of bed today. That's not entirely unusual, nor is it particularly a negative thing. Given the demand for sleep that ALS puts on my body, I can always sleep just a bit more. Given the amount of work that it takes to get up and dressed, avoiding it is an energy saving idea. Given the absence of any particular demand on my schedule, staying in bed just makes sense. Let's face it, if the rest of the world could avoid getting out of bed on Monday morning, what percentage would do just that?
So here it is late in the afternoon and I am having my "morning" coffee. I need to rush over to Safeway and pick up the ingredients for a Greek Salad to go with the Lamb Chops I am preparing for dinner tonight. Mike and Cheryl are coming over to discuss strategies to let me live in my home once I run out of money. There are a few good ideas on the table and I know I can trust them to help me make a good decision.
The reality is, of course, that there is no good outcome from this. So for me, in the moment, for today, I am going to focus on the good things I have in my life. I have wonderful people around me. I can still eat, still shop, still cook, still look after myself, mostly. The emotional setbacks of the last few days will pass and I will move forward. It is in my nature to forgive and move past stuff. It's just a part of who I am, whether I like it or not.
It is a beautiful day outside. The Chinook winds have brought warm weather, the snow is melting, the sky is a beautiful powder blue drifting into soft white on the distant horizon. The air is now calm; the branches on my tree, clear of snow, are still. Not even the junkos and magpies are out right now. I suspect that they too are basking in the warmth of what should be a winter day.
It will cool off tonight; it's begun already. The temperature is off a couple of degrees from its midday high. The middle of the night will bring back the cold, just enough of it to freeze the melt of the day into black ice on the local roads. It is the way of life here in Calgary; the gift of warmth in the day brings the danger of ice in the night. Life is kind of like that too; you have to enjoy the gifts of the day for the shadows of night bring sorrow. I like the warm days a lot better.
Since you have put extensive renovations into your place to make it work for you, could you sell it to some charity or organization and then rent it back. You could advertise on ALs limk and many others like MS,CMT, to name a few.
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